12 Bad Habits

This is like the worst habit EVER! I got my four loads of laundry done… but only by the hair of my chinny chin chin… and I HATE this! I can’t believe that I agreed to do this! I am NEVER going to make it I suck so bad at this!

I just wish that I could be better about these stupid mundane things that take over my every day life! How on this earth do people force themselves to DO things like this? hmmmmm? Ugh…. I can do this, I am so glad February is a short month.

Laundry… I WILL defeat you.

I admit that I am not very excited about the laundry habit… I know it is necessary, but it still makes me VERY cranky. But today is the first day of the four loads of laundry a week habit! That doesn’t sound like much, but for someone who usually lets her laundry pile up until it ALL needs to be done… well, it is quite a bit. The idea is that by doing a little at a time, I can keep myself from having to do big chunks!

Believe it or not this is habit is going to be way harder for me to break, because I am inherently lazy, and the last habit was just NOT doing something, whereas the new habit is all about me actually DOING something…. sooooo

Here’s to four loads a week! (I can totally count the one in my washer right now, right?)

Well, I made it through, and I am VERY excited about it! It took a lot of willpower, and it took a lot of thinking and planning. There was one particularly tough evening when they brought me a big plate full of fries with my meal and I wasn’t prepared, but I asked the waitress to take them away and all was good!

Today is the day where I decide rather or not I am keeping the habit, and for the most part… yes I am keeping the habit… BUT I will amend it a bit… I won’t eat anything deep fried in a batter, or french fries… which is pretty much what I have been doing all month (ground beef, for example, while technically fried in a skillet, was not on the list) so I will continue with my habit with one exception… on occasion I can have chips… if I am eating a mexican salad and it has tortilla strips, I am not going to spend ten minutes picking out the strips, etc.

I want to keep this habit, if for no other reason than I never again want to eat french fries, but I know that if I continue to limit myself in the ways that I have, then it won’t be possible for me… so I have decided that I will make this broken habit work for my life by allowing myself the occasional chip snack. I don’t plan on eating an entire bag of chips with my subway meal, and if there is a substitute, I will make it! But, this is how I plan to make this habit happen and fit into my life!

Well, I thought long and hard about it, and I decided I didn’t want to do a food related habit next month, but that I did want to do a habit that was something I thought I could actually do, because I feel like the most important part of the beginning of this whole thing is to be successful, so I have decided to tackle my hatred of laundry.

Okay, some people hate laundry, but I despise it… loathe it, and would rather go to the store nd buy new stuff before I actually did it. And, sometimes I do actually do just that… go to the store and buy new stuff instead of going upstairs and doing a load. That being said, here is the plan… I will do at least four loads of laundry a week all month long. That will give me some leeway on something I completely hate, but it will also make me do some laundry, and if I start doing it like that, then maybe I can start actually doing the laundry regularly!

Hell, if I can NOT eat fried food, then I can totally do some laundry… right?

Okay, so I don’t know what I was thinking… but I am sitting here right now at panera bread staring down a damn bag of chips… I really want them. They would make my panera sandwich so much better. It would be all yummy and salty and I didn’t even think about the fact that they would bring me chips with my meal! Ugh! Now what am I going to do here! Okay there is none way to handle this… I could just open the bag and eat the damn things…. that is what I WANT to do…

Okay, this is my first real moment of weakness here… I mean I have wanted things in the past month, but nothing like this! They are sitting right there on my plate…

This is my first test of true willpower. This is what I am working towards here, to change myself and my habits… but I am kind of discovering this is more than just a habit… this is like ingrained in me. To not think about the consequences of an action, but instead to just go for whatever makes me happiest right then.

Deep Breath… I am just going to hand these chips to the Panera guy next time he walks by… wish me luck….

…. I did it! I handed him my chips! I didn’t eat them! I actually made a decision that was good for me and I stuck with it!

ME! I did it! Wow… this is so crazy, I was scared I wasn’t going to be able to do this, but I did!

Snaps to me.

I don’t eat fried food oh no I don’t. I am awesome sauce and I rock so much. I thought this was going to be hard, it is not. I am awesome!

Yup… that’s my song… so sing it loud!

I decided I was in the mood for a litle vlog instead of a regular B-log post today!

It’s the twelfth and guess what?!?! I still haven’t even eaten fried food, and I can’t even believe how easy it is! I love that I am just taking this one habit at a time, and focusing all my energy on it. Part of me thinks I should spped it up, but I am thinking that if I were to do that, then I might not have as much willpower to do it. I think I will stick to the original plan and just see how far I can take this.

i still haven’t decided what I am going to give up net month though… part of me thinks I need to drink more water… another says a load of laundry a day… or should I go with breakfast every day… oh… or maybe ugh I dunno! So indecisive!