Okay, so I don’t know what I was thinking… but I am sitting here right now at panera bread staring down a damn bag of chips… I really want them. They would make my panera sandwich so much better. It would be all yummy and salty and I didn’t even think about the fact that they would bring me chips with my meal! Ugh! Now what am I going to do here! Okay there is none way to handle this… I could just open the bag and eat the damn things…. that is what I WANT to do…

Okay, this is my first real moment of weakness here… I mean I have wanted things in the past month, but nothing like this! They are sitting right there on my plate…

This is my first test of true willpower. This is what I am working towards here, to change myself and my habits… but I am kind of discovering this is more than just a habit… this is like ingrained in me. To not think about the consequences of an action, but instead to just go for whatever makes me happiest right then.

Deep Breath… I am just going to hand these chips to the Panera guy next time he walks by… wish me luck….

…. I did it! I handed him my chips! I didn’t eat them! I actually made a decision that was good for me and I stuck with it!

ME! I did it! Wow… this is so crazy, I was scared I wasn’t going to be able to do this, but I did!

Snaps to me. :)